The wet blanket

"A cynic is a man who, when he smells flowers, looks around for a coffin." - H. L. Mencken

Do you knoe someone who likes to rain on every parade? Do you always hear him/her saying

"You'll never make it."

"It will not work."

"It can't happen."

"It's not possible."

Wet blankets are people who are pessimistic. They are automatically negative about whatever makes you excited. It's like delaying an orgasm or stopping in the point of climax. LOL. They harbor the what we call the pretraumatic stress syndrome which is a tendency to believe that because everything is going so well, disaster must certainly be just around the corner. They are also cynical which is their way to attack other person the qualities they themselves lack. Wet blankets reject positive experiences by insisting that it didn't happen, so they think that it might as well will never happen or work. They deflate you like bursting a kid's bubble before finally reaching its fullness which snuff excitement. Their typical profile is a person who is like having a Myocardial Infarction, he thinks the past was tiring and a failure, the present is painful and miserable and the future looks clammy cold and bleak. It's like not giving hope to a patient who is dying in the emergency room, saying "He'll never make it."

Some people use pessimism as a defense. They are at their best when they focus on the negative. What they do is that they predict the worst-case scenario and then do something to keep that worst case from happening. But did you knoe that pessimism is actually contagious? Like a flu-virus, if a member of the family has it, then the whole family will soon get it. I have read that most pessimistic individual has pessimistic parents, but of course this is not absolute. Remember, flu doesn't only and always infect family members but also friends. There was a study that was shared in a book that I have read entitled "High-maintenance Relationship" by Dr. Les Parrott, wherein they discovered that low-self-esteem individuals seem to have a generally negative view not only of themselves but also with other people who have low-self-esteem and perhaps to everybody.

So how should we cope with cynics? Remember that not all negative expressions are a result of negativism. Critical thinkers identify possible disasters and can help you plan ways to evade, overcome, or minimize them unlike pessimists who'll likely say "There's nothing we can do.", so we should knoe the difference between the two to knoe if the person is a critical thinker or a pessimist. Since being negative is a contagious attitude, we should not allow them to infect us. I can say that we should treat pessimistic people like something that can cause us allergy. "I am allergic to cynics!". They are allergens that can induce immediate hypersensitivity reaction. Why? Isn't it that when we are allergic to something, we avoid it? The same is true for them, to treat them as allergens, to avoid them to not contract the pessimism. We can harbor negativism if we always hear negative complaints, statements and comments so avoid hearing negative stuff and always think positive.

Let me share the story of a man who consulted a pessimistic doctor about a problem.

"I'm sure I have the answer to your problem."

"I certainly hope so, Doctor. I should have come to you long ago."

"Where did you go before?"

"I went to the pharmacist."

"What kind of foolish advice did he give you?"

"He told me to come see you."


I am supposed to be in a party right now but since the current news about the curfew starting tonight, owell, the party was canceled. "Get Tagged" is presented by the Alpha Delta Mu Sorority. It will benefit the UST Charity Hospital. I bought two tickets so that I can bring a date but before I start to prepare for the party, James informed me that the party was canceled. It was due to what happened today in Makati when Trillanes and his team (Magdalo) invaded the Makati Penn probably plotting for a coup. Owell, the media got the information, viewed the commotion live on the tube and so it created a shock to everyone. I think there are a lot of people who are disappointed about the new rule, "Curfew 12-5AM". Mainly because, today's "sweldo" day and everyone has money! Filipinos have this act of spending their money after having their "sweldo". Not to mention, the teenagers and those who love the night life would probably be irritated right now for bars and restos are all closed for tonight around Metro Manila. Given that tomorrow is a holiday, tonight for them is surely a waste.

Why are people afraid of death?

Do you think we are lucky living in this corrupt world? Are we really lucky or maybe somewhere out there's much better than life here on earth? Sometimes, it makes me think that dying really is a cool thing. Dead people doesn't have to worry about a lot of stuff like going to med school, paying debts, dealing with impossible people, trying hard just to fit in, and even little problems like what kind of coffee to order in Starbucks. After that last breath, no more worries, not even how, when and where you'll be buried. And wouldn't it be exciting meeting Him finally?! I'm not trying to promote suicide here as a solution into one's miserable life but instead to rationalize death. Most of us are afraid of dying. Why is that so? I really don't knoe the real reason behind but for me, I can say that I am not afraid of dying. I am ready to face death, whenever, wherever... I don't have particulars too like I want it to be a slow process, I want it during my sleep, I want it to be sudden and all those kinds you hear from a lot of people.

Why do we love this temporary life? Aren't we sure of the existence of permanent life after death? Why are we sooo attached in this world? It makes me wonder...

I am rare? LOL.

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)
Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.
You read it right! I am rare according to so people, please take care of me, be gentle! Hahaha...

I am sooo f*cked up today...

Okay, I am not really mad or anything of the same kind. I just want to express my so called irritations for today. Let me enumerate 'em.

  • Our maid left us without any notice! Come on, when I woke up, I immediately blogged then when I finally went downstairs, my granny's like busy cooking and all. According to my cousin, he saw her leave the house but he thought she'll just go to the market or something like that, she never came back! The agency will replace her on Monday.
  • Due to the unexpected flight of our maid in i dunno where the hell she is right now, I didn't have a choice but to not leave the house for our MPPRC meeting.
  • My lola was weak a while ago, she didn't have a dialysis session last Thursday because her doctor repaired her fistula. Her next dialysis session is supposed to be on Monday but since she's already not feeling well, with bipedal edema, expanded abdomen accompanied with muscle weakness and bone-joint pains, she had to go and have herself dialyzed.
  • I cooked for lunch! This is not really a problem because I really can cook but the fact that I have a lot of things to do today for my case report next week, it occupied my time for that particular study-research-period.

Owkay, i just want to rant! TC people!

Constantly complains & gives unwanted advices

“We don’t like their sound, groups of guitars are on the way out.” – The president of the Decca Records pertaining to the Beatles in 1962.

Everyone is bound to be critical and to be a victim of criticism. No matter how hard your work, how great your ideas, or how wonderful your talent, you probably had been or will be the object of criticism. No one is exempt. There are some people however who were born to be very critical, those who can shoot down every one of your ideas. Critics are bound to find an error. They are perfectionists and have high standards that can ruin you even the smallest of infractions. They are also bossy and make their disapprovals very clearly assuming the position of an expert, judging your work – being picky about every little detail as if they sit on their self-designed throne. Worse, some soaring-high critics are hungry for power and this can make you feel very exhausted everytime you are with them; giving you commands and all those sort of things. However, critics are good leaders. They are driven and pedantic. They want things done their own way that’s why they are usually pretty hard on themselves too. They are born teachers yet the bad thing is that they usually, especially the show-of critics; parade their knowledge in front of others.

Critics often believe that their criticisms are helpful. They think that if they announce your flaws and mistakes in the mob, you will improve, but then you actually don’t. Critics also believe that bigger problems came from small ones that is why they suggest solutions even into the smallest flaw. It seems like they feel the need to criticize everything they see; that it’s their duty to find something wrong. I also think that critics have some sort of personal history suggesting why they are very critical. A family background of critics perhaps? Critical genes? Hahaha…

So how can we cope with critics? At some point, critics have suggestions that are also good, remember that not all their babblings are bad, some of these things we can actually absorb. We sometimes don’t see these criticisms as good because they usually say these in a manner that irritates us. But we don’t knoe, critics might have an idea or something that we don’t knoe, eryt? I think that we should percolate the criticisms that we accept from critics, some are good and will actually make us grow as a person so we should set our boundaries. If the criticism is destructive, avoid it, don’t take it up, let it drop like a rain in the roof; it hits hard on the roof but then it falls from the roof and goes away, not really being affected. Critics are sometimes also expert gossips, instead of criticizing you in front of your face; they tend to complain about you to others in a fairly destructive way. Hahaha… So to avoid criticisms, do nothing, say nothing and be nothing; it is that simple. Lastly, I think we should practice also being “self-referral” rather than being an “object-referral”. Here’s Deepak Chopra’s idea about self and object-referral from the book The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success.

The experience of the Self, or “self-referral,” means that our internal reference point is our own spirit, and not the objects of our experience. The opposite of self-referral is object-referral. In object-referral we are always influenced by objects outside the Self, which include situations, circumstances, people, and things. In object-referral we are constantly seeking the approval of others. Our thinking and our behavior are always in anticipation of a response. It is therefore fear-based.

In object-referral we also feel an intense need to control things. We feel an intense need for external power. The need for approval, the need to control things, and the need for external power are needs that are based on fear. This kind of power is not the power of pure potentiality, or the power of the Self, or real power. When we experience the power of the Self, there is an absence of fear, there is no compulsion to control, and no struggle for approval or external power.

In object-referral, your internal reference point is your ego. The ego, however, is not who you really are. The ego is your self-image; it is your social mask; it is the role you are playing. Your social mask thrives on approval. It wants to control, and it is sustained by power, because it lives in fear.

Your true Self, which is your spirit, your soul, is completely free of those things. It is immune to criticism, it is unfearful of any challenge, and it feels beneath no one. And yet, it is also humble and feels superior to no one, because it recognizes that everyone else is the same Self, the same spirit in different disguises.

That’s the essential difference between object-referral and self-referral. In self-referral, you experience your true being, which is unfearful of any challenge, has respect for all people, and feels beneath no one. Self-power is therefore true power.

“Nothing that we encounter leads to a greater and quicker loss of control than to be criticized. And, equally, it is harder to regain control when we are criticized than in any other situation.” – psychologist William Glasser, from his book Control Theory

Goodluck to C3 on Tuesday for our MPPRC!

the 200th

I just found out that this is my 200th post! Hahaha, owell, so i decided to make the title of this post "the 200th". Anyway, finally got the time to update my blog. Last sunday, we had our APMC Games tournament with other medical schools. We competed against 10 other medical schools around Metro Manila and we were 3rd in the men's and women's team events. Not bad huh? Eryt because it's just our second year joining the table tennis competition. Last year we ended up at the 3rd and 2nd places for the men's and women's singles respectively. This year, UP took the 1st place in both team events, FEU got the 2nd place in the men's division and UE in the women's. O'ryt, that's just an update. Okay, here's my team.

For more pictures, visit my multiply, photos section.

high maintenance relationship

“The difficulty you experience with most impossible people is in your relationship, not in the person.” – Les Parrott III, Ph.D.

Les Parrott described two types of relationship; the high-maintenance relationship with impossible people and the low-maintenance relationship. According to him, the people we consider to be high maintenance in a relationship are like luxury cars; they need constant attention, drain our energy, eat up our time, and create a stream of unnecessary hassles. People who we consider as low maintenance in relationship however are the people who we get along well without so much effort or it doesn’t require much work. He described these people that are low-maintenance in a relationship as “natural fit”. We easily get irritated with impossible people, and that’s a sure fact, however it doesn’t have to be like that. We get irritated, but that person most of the time doesn’t know that he’s causing us so much irritation. Sometimes, we get irritated to a particular person but other people aren’t irritated to him/her. Why? It’s a self issue, we think the problem is with that person we hate but actually the problem sometimes is with us. We cannot control people, so we should not, that’s the general rule. In a relationship, even if he or she is already your boyfriends/girlfriend, husband/wife, the general rule is to not control a person. Each individual has his own dharma, yes, an individual way of life, and this dharma differs from each individual person. Imagine that it’s like rowing a boat; the boat is your life; rowing a boat make us exert effort to make any progress, however if you row another person’s boat while rowing your own boat, you need to exert extra effort to do it yet the boats are sluggish, unprogressive or will not move at all. I think in order to have a good relationship with others, even if you consider that person to be the worst, just think good things about that person, and if he’s in the verge of irritating you, go with his flow – don’t clash or if not just avoid the moments when that person will already make you burst. Sometimes, it also works if you imagine yourself being on that person’s shoes. That will make you understand more about an individual. That person could be having some depressing problems, mental or psychiatric disorders or had a weird past which will explain most of the cases. You don’t need to change yourself or the person; it’s on how you deal with your relationship with that person. In that way, we can have a fruitful life, communal relationships and eliminate being judgmental.

Anyway, I just want to share a very good website that can relieve stress especially for medical students like me. I got this from dave’s blog that says “We do not stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing.” I think medical students sometimes forget to play like a kid that’s why we grow old and problematic with all these heavy problems we’re going through in med school. Do you knoe Jackson Pollock? He’s a famous abstract painter and got more famous through painting by simply splashing layers of paint in the canvas. So here’s the site and Njoy:


My friend and seatmate Bel invited me to watch the play Dogeaters at RCBC in Makati because her boyfriend Pay has tickets. I read that the actual show starts on November 16, 2007 so I guess Pay’s tickets are special invite tickets because we watched it 1 day earlier. Hahaha… Eugene, Kay and Mailee also came to watch the show. It was my first time in the RCBC tower in Makati (I didn’t kiss the building’s floor tho…) and it was the coolest building I’ve been to; it looked so nice, there are a lot of restos inside, and the tower has bridges! Yes bridges, I think the RCBC tower’s composed of 2 or 3 towers (towers within a tower? LOL) joined by these bridges. I don’t know how they did it but it really has, the building’s design is unusual. Anyway, when we got there, we ate dinner first at Kitaro then headed to the Carlos P. Romulo Auditorium to watch the play. The play was a fun, it features a lot of Marshal Law era fads. Like popular TV and radio shows, advertisements, fashion, gimik places, etc. Some of them I don’t knoe or perhaps cannot recall because Marshal law era was not my era. It wasn’t just a funny play; it has heavy parts too like portraying how people struggled during the Marcos’ regime, people who sacrificed their lives for our country and some family dramas. The actors were all great especially the one who played as Joey Sands, I dunno who he is though. Gina Alajar, Rez Cortez, Michael de Mesa, Jon Santos, and Joel Torre were also in the cast and they did great acting. There are a lot of Sh*ts and F*ck yous though so children aren’t allowed to watch.

I had a great time that night because I watched a play and got to knoe the people I rarely go out with. And of course, although it was Thursday, we didn’t have to worry about Pharmacology because the pharma schedule the following day was not heavy. Hehehe, lucky!

The play was based from a novel by New York-based Filipino author and playwright Jessica Hagedorn. Directed by Bobby Garcia for Atlantis Productions, Dogeaters is an adaptation of Hagedorn’s novel, which was published in 1990 and nominated for the National Book Award. It premiered onstage in 1998 at the La Jolla Playhouse in California and was later brought to the Joseph Papp Public Theater in New York in 2001.

Pay, Bel, Maylee, Kay, the Author. Eugene took this shot. Sorry Eug! Que barbaridad ba?

Parable of the coffee...

This is a very good story regarding truths in life. I think this is a lost parable in the Bible. Hahaha... Just kiddin.

A group of alumni, all highly established in their respective careers, got together for a visit with their old university professor. The conversation soon turned to complaints about the endless stress of work and life in general…

Offering his guests coffee, the professor went into the kitchen and soon returned with a large pot of coffee and an eclectic assortment of cups: porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal - some plain, some expensive, some quite exquisite. Quietly he told them to help themselves to some fresh coffee..

When each of his former students had a cup of coffee in hand, the old professor quietly cleared his throat and began to patiently address the small gathering… ”You may have noticed that all of the nicer looking cups were taken up first, leaving behind the plainer and cheaper ones. While it is only natural for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is actually the source of much of your stress-related problems.” He continued… ”Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. In fact, the cup merely disguises or dresses up what we drink. What each of you really wanted was coffee, not a cup, but you instinctively went for the best cups… Then you began eyeing each other’s cups….”

”Now consider this: Life is coffee. Jobs, money, and position in society are merely cups. They are just tools to shape and contain Life, and the type of cup we have does not truly define nor change the quality of the Life we live. Often, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee that God has provided us… God brews the coffee, but he does not supply the cups. Enjoy your coffee!”

Breakup is painful because...

Why breakup is painful? I have read very good items for that matter. I only had 1 serious relationship in my life and I admit that I wasn’t really a good partner not until maybe the next time that I will have. Anyway, I will not talk about my issues right now but I am going to share my learning and ideas why breakup is very painful and of course would also try to recommend an advice on how to somehow lessen or avoid the pain.

Breakup is painful because we make plans with our partner. I think that is the main reason why every breakup really hurt. Most of the time we enter in a relationship because we want to share our love, we need be loved and we want to be happy. When we reach this goal; love and happiness with our partner, the relationship then becomes more or less boring, unless there are still unfulfilled happiness and love between the two. Fulfilled happiness and love doesn’t accept any more room for love and happiness so plans will then enter into the relationship; we think or prepare for the future, make long-term goals, etc. We forget the fact that everything is temporary in life, everything will end at some point, that there’s no such thing as forever. It’s an accepted fact that letting go or detachment is a normal situation and sometimes is a very good thing to do, but then why does it hurt so much? It is because of the unfulfilled plans. As I have stated a while ago, as we go along with our relationship, we make plans for the relationship and then if unfortunately it’s really the time that we have to let go of our partner, it would be very painful because we still have a lot of expectations from that relationship and from our partners; there are still unfulfilled agendas so everything falls down around us. When we are in a relationship, we are happy looking forward into our plans with our partner; we see things differently, it’s flawless and orgasmic. This will make the relationship more interesting and happy, but like what I have said, thing’s aren’t permanent in life, people come and go, people live and die, so if our partner leaves us, unfulfilled happiness and love will make us sad or hurt. The ultimate goal of a relationship is not that it should last forever but instead the goal is that we share happy and beautiful times together, that we inspire each other, give and take of love, and that we learn and share new things with our partner.

A few people believe that the reason why breakup hurts so much is due to the dissipated emotional investment and some however are hurt because of the good memories with their partner that haunts them every time they reminisce these cherishing memoirs. In a relationship, we invest our emotions and love not for us but for our partner. Many of us invest for ourselves and this is a wrong notion. How can you love a person if the emotion just keeps on coming back to you? You share what you have to others; you invest for others and not for yourself. Reminiscing past relationships based from experience is not hurting at all, it’s more ideal to recollect things with your ex-partner especially the good times.

So what should we do in order to avoid this situation?

When you are in a relationship, try to be satisfied with the happiness and love that you get everyday, do not make futuristic and unrealistic happiness because future is unpredictable, anything can happen, bad or wrong. In other words, if you don’t see it coming, avoid it.

Learn how to be a little detached. Don’t make your self very attached to a person or to anything. Everything in this world is temporary. This idea is very much practiced by many of us when it comes to material things but we forget this concept when it comes to relationships.

Invest your emotions for your partner and not for your self.

Reminisce the good old times with your ex-lovers and not the bad ones. It’s more ideal to think that there are good or even great people who came into your life.

Owkay, these are just some advices okay? I also think that not everyone will agree with what I have written but I just want to share, just keep your minds open. Hehehe...

back to reality

i am back to school again and it's just sad, i was not excited. i wanted to be excited so that things will run smoothly but i was back in the old medical building with disgust. i don't knoe what's the real reason why i am not excited now. before, i used to be very high when the semester's about to start, something must be wrong with me. hahaha. but first day wasn't that bad after all. APMC games will be on November 17-18 and we are already panicking! i made reservations a while ago for the final 5 days of training the team, tomorrow will be the start of the team's ranking and crap i already accepted the fact that i wouldn't enter the final four, ion't want to play either. hahaha. okay, so there, we had our first quiz for this semester in microbiology a while ago, surgery1 professors were about an hour late in the orientation, anesthesia made us go home early because there's nothing to do yet, it's still orientation week. owell, that's all for today! and oh, i got pasalubong from davao, suha and durian candies from hanna. later..

i just read in the newspaper, it kind of disgust me... the new Batman movie will suppose to shoot a scene in Hongkong harbor wherein batman will jump into the water, or something to that kind, but recent findings suggest the production officials to cancel the shooting because when they checked a water sample, oh crap, they found a lot of things including salmonella and tuberculosis. hahaha... tuberculosis huh? owell, dirty harbor... i suppose manila bay's water hosts the same organisms or worse...

Philippines in Britney's new song

okay, Philippines is again being mentioned, not in a TV series but in one of britney's songs in her new album. the lyric's below, im including the song, just listen and follow. hahaha...

"Piece Of Me"
Britney Spears

I'm Miss American Dream since I was 17
Don't matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still got pictures of my derri¨re in the magazine
You want a piece of me?
You want a piece of me...

I'm Miss bad media karma
Another day another drama
Guess I can't see no harm
In working and being a mama
And with a kid on my arm
I'm still an exception
And you want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)

I'm Mrs. 'You want a piece of me?'
Tryin' and pissin' me off
Well get in line with the paparazzi
Who's flippin' me off
Hopin' I'll resort to startin' havoc
And end up settlin' in court
Now are you sure you want a piece of me?
I'm Mrs. 'Most likely to get on TV for strippin' on the streets'
When getting the groceries, no, for real..
Are you kidding me?
Causing panic in the industry

I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)

I'm Miss American Dream since I was 17
Don't matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still got pictures of my derri¨re in the magazine
You want a piece of me?
You want a piece of me...
You want a piece of me?

I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)
Oh yeah
You want a piece of me

Evidence of Grace

Today's topic in the Church is about the evidence of God's grace.

*Love that goes upward is WORSHIP

*Love that goes outward is AFFECTION

*Love that goes down is GRACE

I learned that God's grace is actually not a right but an undeserving privilege. Why? Everybody has an access to the unending grace of God, that is absolute but since we are only human, sinful in nature, we are undeserving of God's grace, but since Jesus died for us, as a payment for our sins, we get God's grace. People sometimes abuse this gift tho not thinking about the fact that the real reason why we get God's grace is through Jesus' sacrifice for the mankind. That's the reason why God's grace is not a right received by people but an undeserving privilege.

my family with Pastor Clem Guillermo and wife Merly, taken during the first year anniversary of their Church.

hardware, purgatory, old buddies, chaikofi, juice avenue

Whew, going back to manila is very tiring. Manila per se is tiring. There are a lot of stresses when you are in manila unlike here in the province. There, you have a lot of things to worry about, but here in the province things run smoothly except of course when it comes to my dad’s business. Speaking of my dad’s business, my dad don’t see me as the potential manager of our business, i am not a business minded person, i am more of an employee rather than an employer. When nico and i were still kids, my dad used to bring us with him in the hardware so that according to him, we’ll knoe where exactly our money is coming from, how it is actually hard to earn money. My dad knoes every part of our hardware, as we all knoe, in a hardware, there are a lot of things you can actually buy. He knoes everything, where they are located, the prices, and i can’t remember everything even though he keeps on repeating some of the names and prices of the items and always reminding us where they are located, so when i am there, i am actually lost, because things are like scattered everywhere, therefore i don’t usually entertain costumers unless he’s only buying a kilo of nails. Let me give some hardware buys that you might not knoe what is it exactly and where it is actually used:

Galvanized iron?
Welding rod?
White cement?
Teflon tape?
Concrete nail?
Wasser or Washer?
Window plate?
Schedule 16?

Wah, there are a lot! Of course some are already common things like nails, paints, hollow blocks, cements. Hahaha... anyways, we didn’t go to the cemetery. It is not my family’s practice to go to the cemetery every November 1. We, especially my parents actually hate to go there. It’s very crowded, very hot, and then after you’ve visited all the mausoleums, you feel very tired, sticky, that’s it! That’s all you get. We usually meet a lot of relatives but they are afraid or won’t talk because it’s either they are afraid of me or they just don’t feel like talking to me.

But last night, we had this Bible study for the children. We invited children here in our place and asked brother jun to facilitate. It was my first time hearing brother jun facilitate a Bible study because it was already a long time since i have attended such an affair. He is such a great speaker. His way of speaking is really for children because he uses examples and situations that the children can easily understand. He is very effective too because he’s very confident in what he’s talking about. But there’s this one issue he discussed last night that bothered me. It is about the existence of the purgatory. Ahm, i’m actually not a believer of the purgatory ever since i was a child. I was raised as a Christian but attended in Catholic schools. Purgatory is a place believed by Catholics where sinned dead people are purged before they are accepted in heaven. I was also taught that you cannot actually pray already for the dead because they are already dead! But according to him, while a person is still in the purgatory, you can pray for that person so that he will be purged and reach heaven. Of course i didn’t react neither did my father who is more firm with his beliefs. I think i did the right thing tho, of course as well as what my father did, to not react immediately in such issues, to be open into certain concerns, to not close my doors, and instead i listened intently to his explanation about the purgatory. He also said that the Bible didn’t mention the word purgatory but he sited some verses in the old testament that according to him tells something about the purgatory. Ahm, there could be a purgatory, i still have to find the truth behind it because as we all knoe, the purgatory is not really found in the Bible, but i still don’t buy the idea of praying to or for the dead. Ahm the main reason for that is according to the Bible, while a person is still living, he should be responsible for his own salvation and not by others who will actually pray for him when he is already dead so that he can be saved; another thing, the bible teaches us to pray to God only and not to actually talk to any non-living thing or dead people. Aside from these matters, there are still a lot of things that i learned from brother jun last night such as about one’s responsibility for the salvation of others and who are the real saints. He is also very friendly, when he found out that i am a medical student, he invited me in a medical conference that will be held on Saturday formed by a research company from Australia.

My lola trining is already very old and weak. My tita plans to get her back in the States probably next year, so we need to process her papers. We went to the NBI office in Dagupan last Tuesday to have her cleared and all, and one of my titas who works i think in the immigration will process her papers so she accompanied us. After that, we visited my lola’s i think friend whom based from what i heard was her friend during the war. Hahaha... it’s very nice to see the two friends happily reminiscing their experiences during the war. They were laughing sharing new different and common experiences, like having an appointment with this doctor and that, then asking each other whether this person and that is still alive, etc. While they were talking in the house, my mom and i wandered around the compound and it felt like we were in the old days, well, i don’t actually knoe the feeling of living in the old days but i was like in a different setting. There are a lot of bamboos everywhere, you can actually hear the bamboos squeak when the wind sways them; then there is a fish pond at the back end of the compound where it is very relaxing just by looking at the calm water. So there! I am sharing this experience because i am happy to actually see my lola very happy that day.

One more thing, i should mention here about this restaurant in the Mall of Asia, but i think it was originally from Singapore, Malaysia or somewhere in South East Asia. It’s called Chaikofi and it’s in the wing near the IMAX building. The food’s great although i think people don’t knoe it yet because there are only a few people eating when we were there. There are different choices of sandwiches and pasta (pesto, white sauces, tomato sauces), and the dutch chicken according to my brother was awesome, it was soft, juicy and tasty. Yum.

Another store i also want to recommend is the Juice Avenue. Hahaha, i am fond of drinking fresh fruit juices that’s why, and my favourite is carrot juice. What i adore in this store is the “twilight zone”, it’s the combination of carrot, apple, papaya and banana, yum! And i think it is cheaper than the other stores.

Obviously, I’ve been eating out most of my days during this break, and every corpuscle of my body’s loving it. Wah, second semester’s about to start! I am soooo excited! (sarcastic)


Chaikofi in Mall of Asia
Dad enjoying his pesto and me enjoying my alfredo

Juice Avenue, a fresh and healthy way to enjoy any kind of fruits. Found in malls.

My mom dancing with the swaying bamboos... hehehe

The fish pond i was talking about...

Old buddies! hehehe... lola floring and my lola trining...